I'm very grateful and I'm just breathing and flowing in it.

This is my second week with the breast cancer survivors and support group in their Dragon Boat racing team. I've never been apart of a team in my life and I feel great to join this team of incredible, fearless women and their supporters!

I'm losing inches, and my body is moving much more fluent; feeling lighter.

I purchased my first bike, helmet and lock from Bike South and decided to join Bike MS Cox team with a friend on yesterday. I've never rode more than 6 blocks in my life. Sept.11-12 in Callaway Gardens, I will ride 25 miles on day 1. And day 2, 35 miles. OMG, what am I thinking!

This evening, I'm going to a book signing this evening to check out an author by the name of Daniel Black after work. But, I will work out at the company's gym before I go(got to stay stick to the plan).

Love my partner, tolerate my son and stay clear of my family.

What more can one ask for. I’ve made lemonade out of lemons….

Life is good!

Life is beautiful! I want to experience every good thing here on this magnificent place called Earth, while I am here traveling in this physical form, yes, it is a blessing!
Trees are beautiful and there are so many I want to see in other parts of the world; Mother Africa, China, The Caribbean Island and in every remote area.
What if each ancestor was a tree? I’d definitely make sure I’d visit them all.
I want to meet people from other cultures, visit their communities, and listen to their stories about their families, country and other things that mean life to them.

God has even me a gift; to love people and write about it; this is one of them….

May 27, 2010

I struggle to meditate, yet this morning I got up early enough to sit and spend some time within. Afterwards, I even had enough time to walk to the train station which is about 20 minutes away from my home. Finally, I’m up early enough to get some exercise.

Yet, close to the train station, I'm running out of time to take the train I normally ride to get to work if I had drove; I have to put more fuel to my step.

Before I’d noticed, a city bus passed me; I feel more rushed knowing that I will be even more late. I feel guilty that I didn’t turn around to see the bus in time.

As I calm my thoughts, I notice across the street a group of black birds flying around near the side wall of the mall. I stop in my tracks after I saw something large scoop behind the low wall like a whale gliding underneath the tides. His wing span long, could it be a falcon?

He has something weightless and limp in his massive claws as he sits on a huge pole. I think it's blue jeans, shorts, or a t-shirt (time to get my head out of the city life) it is a limp pigeon.

Wow, a falcon has hunted near one of the most urban malls in the city; West End Mall.

I’m looking at nature at its rawest form. The Animal Planet in living view and I am the camera woman recording; this ingrained in my mind forever. I didn’t see the kill, but I saw the aftermath. I'm shock as I watch him sit on the pole as the small black birds are loud with alarm swirling around him and his kill.


I cross the street trying not get hit by on-going traffic to get a closer look.

I'm surprised, he didn’t fly off.

He's the largest bird I’ve seen up close. If I had taken the bus I would had missed this natural act.

Later that day, I researched online falcon animal totems and it stated:

It encourages us to calculate and strategize. If we have a goal, Falcons beckon us to make plans and strategies to obtain these goals. Falcons are all about focus - strong, one-pointed focus. When they show themselves to us, we are being called to focus on our desires and our goals, and do what is necessary to bring our desires into our reality.

The fact that the Falcon is a solar creature could mean there is something in your life that you are highly passionate about, and the Falcon is asking you to take action on this passion. But be smart about it - don't jump into something without doing research and planning. Make your passion a reality by pursuing it methodically and as strategically as the Falcon would pursue his hunt.

Mystical Moments

He is beautiful, strong and black as the crow that calls my name at 3am to go on a mystical ride.
We fly together and sing-off key and no one cares.
He comforts and tells me not to fear that I am strong, brave and I will be a success.
He says I am vessel, and people will hear their thoughts and cleanse their tears and come alive again and not merely assist, but fly like us.
They will become apart of the sky,rivers, streams and train tracks as they ride on their journeys.
They will sing we are one, we are reflections of the greatest one; the beam within.

Who is my new neighbor?

I’ve been out from work for a week under doctor’s care after experiencing wrist pain. I was at home and extremely depressed.

Entering data information in a fast-paced sales environment for 12 years and recently adding the stress by coming home and typing manuscripts to I improve my creative writing skills, I may have potential carpal tunnel. As I wait on my x-ray results I’ve been trying to keep a positive outlook,heal physical,and mentally.

I’ve been hearing an owl in the large oak tree near my bedroom which is in the northwest area of the house. Each morning upon rising,she is hooting as the wind stir the wood chimes on the sun porch near my room. I wonder what this message to me.

I needed an understanding what this owl was telling me so I got up and turned on the computer and researched:

The owl is the symbol of the feminine, the moon and the night.
The owl is the bird of magic and darkness, of prophecy and wisdom.
An owl totem gives you the power to extract secrets.
Meditate on the owl and things will be revealed.
Listen to its voice inside of you.
You will hear not what is being said by others, but what is hidden.
You can detect subtleties of voice that others cannot.
People cannot deceive a person who has an owl totem.
Owl people can see into the darkness of others souls.
Most owl people are clairvoyant because of this ability.
It can be very scary at times.
Learn to trust your instincts about people.
Let your owl totem guide you.


Owls know when to move silently and when to be still, which makes them the keepers of secrets. These solitary birds don't feel the need to proclaim their presence to anyone until the timing is right. Owl comes to us when we need to open our eyes, and study the situation at hand. If we watch and listen with our inner selves we can figure out what is happening behind the scenes, and confront those who are trying to deceive us at the appropriate time.

The owl represents wisdom and higher education. Because of the owl's keen eyesight it considered to be a great visionary. It also has superb hearing. As a totem it can reveal clairaudient and clairvoyant abilities. This nocturnal bird is called "The Keeper of Dark Secrets." The owl totem has a connection to the dark side and the dead. The owl is associated with superstition and magical powers. Whenever an owl appears or you hear an owl screech in the night it may be that a secret will soon be revealed to you. Also, if a secret is shared with you in confidence, the owl serves as a reminder to honor that knowledge and keep the secret private.

The Element: Owl people are influenced by the element fire, an element symbolizing spontaneity, enthusiasm, and idealism. However, in Owls, fire does not burn wildly and uncontrolled. It glows quietly and softly. The power of fire is used to acquire spiritual knowledge.

The Clan: Owl belongs to the Hawk clan, which makes Owl people levelheaded and farsighted. They strive for deeper understanding. The driving force behind them is a quiet and lasting inner fire. In order to acquire more knowledge, members of the Hawk clan, and particularly Owl, are willing to pursue any adventure or challenge that life offers. Owls grow and mature with their tasks.

The Wind: During the time between November 23 and December 21 the wind blows from the West. This is a time of long nights and introspection. Nature also pulls back, preparing for the long winter. But nature's stillness only affects things on the surface. Hidden underground, inside trees, and below the snow, much is happening. In nature as well as in the human soul, this is when new ideas are born from nights dark and obscure.

Owl Character: With the elements fire, Owl people have an enduring strength that allows them to follow their high ideals and formidable goals. This is why people often think of them as haughty and arrogant. That does not bother Owl people. They know that there is more between heaven and earth than logic and materialism. They strive for a deeper understanding and a more profound truth.
This is why Owl can be so committed to her ideals. She has plenty of enthusiasm and little difficulty inspiring others. She has great difficulty tolerating narrow-mindedness and restrictions. Owl people need a lot of freedom and independence to pursue their goals. After all, the world is a place much in need of improvement. A missionary zeal is not uncommon among Owls, and sometimes they overdo it and appear to be know-it-alls.
I any case, Owls loves a good debate because during intense conversations ideas can be exchanged and new insights and attitudes developed. Generally speaking, Owls are open and very direct, sometimes to the point of tactlessness. Owls must learn to accept different opinions and idea.

Poetic Mood

How I Give Love

I give love freely like the ocean flowing continuously
I give love like ancient men thirsting for knowledge
My love echoes thought centuries
My love is timeless
No concept of space or time
Traveling though generations just to adore you
My only reason is to cherish you indefinitely
My love rises above war, hatred and fear
Healing wounds and incurable diseases
My love is pure and strong
My love is five heartbeats pulsating stronger
Giving you every ounce of me
Loving you deeply and hard without thought, reason, or cause

How do I give love© copyright 2004 Colette Paul

Bird Talking

I’ve been noticing the birds likely. It’s amazing we go along our business and we are a part of them as much as they are to us. They protect us and tell us so much about ourselves. We are truly connected. I want to spend a weekend in nature to allow the animals to teach me more things.

Not to along ago, a small bird was on the telephone wire at my home, chirping away and loud as ever. How could that sound come for such a little bird? I decided to try to imitate his sound. He chirped in his rhythm and I would follow with my so-called chirping answer. He finally flew away and I realized he was talking to the other birds and not me.

The next morning, as I waited for the city train, I noticed overhead, two mourning doves resting. A lady asked me a question about my walking sneakers and I missed the essence of the doves, they shortly flew away.

Three weeks prior, I was visited by them and I needed to know why. I would hear a woo, woo and thougt it was coming from an owl, but I asked a passenger at the same train station and found out it was a mourning dove.

I assumed they were my animal totems. I had to research further.

I found out; the virtue the dove possesses is Peace, prophecy, new ideas, purity, sexual energy, intimate relationships, creativity, family values, center calmness, tranquility, support, assistance, new relationships, peaceful transition from difficulty, powers of the feminine, patience, friendship.
The dove is embodiment of maternal instinct. She is connected to Mother Earth and her creative energies.
Her mournful call speaks to our deepest self and stirs our emotions.
The voice of the dove is a rain song and brings us hope of a new beginning.
The dove is the totem of “Between Times” and shows us the time of the thinning of the veils between the physical and the spiritual world. Near my home, there are a number of Mourning Doves that I hear calling from time to time. Someone once told me that they only call when they are in the shade, I presume if this is true, it’s because they want instinctively to make it more difficult for birds of prey and other predators to spot them. Ted Andrews mentions in his Book on the Animal Wise Tarot that when we hear a Dove calling, it indicates that life is about to settle, to become more peaceful and calm. This too I have found to be true and yet I have noticed one other thing: I almost always meet someone I could become interested in or have someone flirt with me outrageously shortly after hearing a Mourning Dove call! Males of this type of Dove call to attract a mate, and all Doves are sacred to the Goddess Aphrodite or Venus, the Goddess of love and sexual attraction. This is an important component to Dove medicine, for they are so often hunted by predators, their ability to reproduce rapidly and in very large numbers helps to insure their kind will survive. For many years I have been struck by how, to put it bluntly, unintelligent many Rock Doves appear to be. This is not a slam against Doves in general or against the folks that carry their medicine, not at all! Yet, Rock Doves really are not the most intelligent of birds and yet they thrive in vast numbers despite repeated attempts on their part to be run down by motor cars, bicyclists, pedestrians (of course I have seen vast numbers of humans here that do the same thing, simply amazing.) Drivers here I must confess do take pity on these birds and have come to a complete stop to allow one or more to saunter across the street as it doesn't seem to occur to them to try and fly out of the way. Perhaps it is because they do tend to nest and breed close to humans that they have simply lost their innate sense of self-preservation through fear of humans. This can be a warning to Dove people however, it’s important to recognize that not all people will have your best interests at heart and you may find yourself being "preyed" upon by others if you innocently go walking out into the middle of a busy thoroughfare with no thought that others may be aiming for you. Not all folks unfortunately, are kind enough to stop. What Rock Dove's do really well however and this I am sure helps to keep their populations at peak levels, is a mating dance that must be seen to be believed! The males puff out their feathers and dance, bobbing their heads and shaking their tail feathers, it’s really rather fascinating to watch. No matter what may be happening around them, they continue this dance focusing solely on the female. For Dove people, this is an indication that they too in order to be creative and productive they must focus solely on the tasks at hand and not allow others to infringe upon their space and focus. In doing so, Dove people will find they too can thrive and be highly productive!

Doves in general and the people that carry their medicine are truly some of the most gentle and giving creatures and people on the planet. There is a sense of innocence about them that many others are attracted to, though it’s important that Dove people do be aware that some of the attention might mean the other person is interested in them as a "meal"! It’s not uncommon for many Dove people to complain that their ideas or creative projects are snatched out from underneath them by those that seek to take short cuts and not do their own work. This often happens because the Dove person appears to be "defenseless" and Doves themselves are not known for having many obvious defenses against predators. These folks are not likely to want to make a fuss or hurt other people's feelings. While some Dove people do indeed learn to defend themselves and their work mightily, others find that be having numerous projects and ideas flowing, again we are back to the "reproducing" aspect of Dove medicine, that some of these will escape being stolen or used by others and the Dove person will finally receive the credit that is due them. Because of this too, it is important for Dove people to find ways of protecting their work and creative endeavors through other means such as copyrighting. Having something with a date on it can go a long way in proving that the Dove person had the idea first. It’s not so much a matter of trying to "beat out" everyone else as it is the principle of credit going where it is due.

Dove people often do carry a strong sexual energy and this can be used not only for intimate relationships but for creative endeavors as well. Not only is Dove sacred to Aphrodite but also in the very early Greek myths the Goddess Eurynome took the form of a Dove to lay an egg from which all of manifest life sprang. Because Doves are such gentle, peaceful birds, those who carry their energy may also find that they need lots of quiet and calm space in order to allow their creative energy to flourish. The same is often true of relationships, the Dove person finds things flow more smoothly when their home environment is as tranquil and peaceful as possible.

Doves are also associated with the Pleiades. In the myth, the daughters of Pleione and Atlas were being Pursued by Orion for seven years. They finally escaped when Zeus agreed to transform them into Doves. 7 is a mystical number and indicate an opening between this world and the mystical realms. Those with Dove as a totem often do seem to find that the number 7 appears for them frequently and has great significance and meaning. For some, it may be that they have felt pursued or dogged by something that has been long term and may last anywhere from 7 weeks to 7 years though thankfully not always nearly so long! It is important though that the Dove person understand that "rescue" will come and that the experience is meant to be transformative in some way. The person will find at the end that the boon they receive is so often much greater than the bane of the experience. The names of the sisters who flew into the sky to become the Pleiades are: Asterope, Merope, Alcyone, Maia, Electra, Taygete and Celaeno. Reading about them as individuals may also be helpful for a fuller understanding of Dove medicine. For example, in another myth, Alcyone was married to Ceyx and when he died, she was stricken with grief and threw herself into the sea. She was then transformed into a Halcyon, a relative of the Kingfisher, and she then came to represent the Halcyon days, a time at the Winter Solstice when the sea is especially calm and peaceful. Halcyon also represents prosperity, being free from cares and concerns about both the material as well as the spiritual world. For those who feel in resonance with Alcyone, it can indicate a time when the cares and burdens, even grief that one has been shouldering is about to come to an end and be transformed for the better.

Some things to pay attention to when Dove appears:

People often find that unexpected and unseen support and assistance comes when they need it most.

Travel is often indicated when Dove appears prominently, and this may include relocation to a new home.

A death, either physical (of someone one knows or is close to) or symbolic (within the individual) may occur and while it may bring grief, there is also quite often a sense of relief and gratitude that suffering has finally ended and peace will soon be at hand.

A new relationship may begin or an old one rekindled.

The ways and means of leaving a destructive or difficult situation is at hand. Life is about to become much more peaceful and satisfying on all levels.

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